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- celia05
- 21 hours ago
- 17 min read
Welcome back to the cosmic library, a spot in the universe that awakens you to your truth.
What a wild and crazy ride of revelations unfolding. As the truth reveals itself, I reconnect to the most authentic parts of myself. All of the hidden pieces of the puzzle have come forth, and I am beyond honored that you are going on this journey with me.
I could never have imagined what we were being shown, but no matter how dark and sinister, we needed to see it. I don't recommend looking at all of the images because for some, it is too much to handle; I personally can't.
I'm sure you’re looking for answers as I have, wondering how and why some people are capable of such darkness. So, I've done some soul searching, channeling, and taken a deep and hard look at symbology, patterns, and where everything fell out of balance. I hope that what I am about to share with you will bring you peace, but most of all, fill in the blanks on how we got here.
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Alright, let's start from the beginning. If you've been with me for a while, then you probably know this part of my story. Honestly, it won't hurt to hear it again because it will help you make sense of everything I am about to share.
When I began my spiritual awakening in 2013 ( I originally thought I awakened in 2017, but now I'm positive it was in 2013), I had no idea what was happening to me cosmically; I only knew I felt an internal pull to move in the direction of self-discovery. If you have a copy of my book, then you know there was a moment when I told the Universe that I wanted to help women find their magic. I had not a clue what that looked like, but I was ready to surrender. That is when I began turning inward to find myself.
I began journaling, meditating, exercising, and reading to find the answers. During a meditation, I was met by an orange flame that presented itself as Goddess Ishtar. I didn't think much about it, other than the color orange is associated with the sacral chakra. If you're not familiar with chakras, they are energy centers, and the sacral is found below your belly button, where your womb is located. It is not only where you literally give birth to children, but also where your creative energy is stored. I was feeling completely burned out creatively, so I thought that was why the orange flame appeared. What it really was was the start of my initiation into the underworld. I soon began having dreams and synchronicities of the star symbol. In one dream, someone was yelling, "Stella, Stella" inside an OB-GYN doctor's office. As I entered different rooms, I saw giant posters with Stella written in bright red cursive letters. In another dream, a gold eight-pointed star was hovering over my uterus, while I heard a whisper say, "Remember who you are, remember who you are." Everywhere I went, I would either see a star logo on a van, truck, or the word written on street signs like Astrate. I met a woman online and shared with her about the star synchronicity. She then proceeded to tell me she had just gotten a star tattoo on the side of her wrist and sent me a picture.
I couldn't figure out why the star and where were my spirit guides trying to take me. Circling back to the goddess Ishtar, I discovered her symbol was the eight-pointed star, which represents the planet Venus. I began studying astrology when I say study, I mean picking up a few books, glancing through them, and then having a remembrance; it felt like I was recalling it to my memory. I was led down the path of learning Tarot, and about my natal chart. I discovered that I am an Aquarius rising. I also remembered that my mother read Tarot for her friends and it was circling back to acknowledge that I too had a gift for reading. In Tarot, the major arcana card 17 is the Star card, representing Aquarius. Here I was back to the star. Oh, and 17 reduces to 8, which ties back to the eight-pointed star! I promise I am going somewhere with all of this star madness and saving the children. Oh, and speaking about children, I had a lot of dreams about being pregnant and babies, which is a sign of a rebirth.
Here is something you should take into consideration that I had no idea about until I began learning/remembering astrology: at the age of fifty, you have a Chiron Return. In 2013, when I was having my awakening, I was turning fifty the following year. So why is this important? Well, Chiron is the Wounded Healer, and in your natal chart, it is placed in an area where you need to heal a karmic wound, which is a belief you have about your self-worth that you brought into this lifetime.
Remember me sharing how I told the universe I wanted to help women find their magic, but didn't know how? Welp, by healing a Chiron wound, it becomes your medicine that you use to help others. Can you see how everything is divinely unfolding? I needed to do the inner work, record how I did it, and once I integrated, I became the medicine. So when Goddess Ishtar appeared as my guide, it was to assist me in my transformation.
In 2023, I experienced my Saturn Return at fifty-nine. I never said this journey is easy. But hey, I did the work, created the tools, because if you know anything about a Saturn Return, you're forced to create structure and discipline in the area or house you have Saturn in your natal chart. You want to take a guess where I have Chiron and Saturn? You guessed it, in the second house of self-worth, money, and the material world! Pisces rules that house in my natal chart, which means I had to take the spiritual route to heal and not fall for illusions. This was extremely difficult because I had to break the paradigm that the patriarchal system set up for women. The belief that your self-worth is tied to the erasure of your identity and earning money. I was fighting the belief that the patriarchal system set about women aging, and their value. This was part of the initiation.
Now that you're caught up, let's discuss what's happening today and how the symbology of the eight-pointed star literally points to the state of the world.
But first, what is the true shape of a star? What if I told you that a plasmic star is a sphere, or more precisely, an oblate spheroid? While commonly depicted with points, actual stars are enormous, spherical, brightly glowing balls of plasma.
So, where did the overlapping of two triangles to form a star known as the hexagram or the Star of David come from? The origins of this symbol aren’t rooted in astronomy, but rather in a mix of geometry, religion, and cultural history.
In Hinduism & Buddhism, the six-pointed star represents the union of masculine (upward triangle) and feminine (downward triangle), or the union of spirit and matter.
In Western occultism and Alchemy, the upward triangle represents fire, and the downward triangle represents water. Combining them both symbolizes the "Great Work" or the harmony of opposites.
While the hexagram appeared in ancient Jewish art (like carvings on synagogues), it wasn't an exclusive symbol for Judaism for a long time.
The "Seal of Solomon" six-pointed star was believed to have been used in the Middle Ages as a signet ring used by King Solomon to control demons and spirits.
In 17th-century Prague, the Jewish community began using the Star of David as an official community symbol, and it eventually spread across Europe as a counterpart to the Christian Cross.
So if stars are spheres, why use this specific geometry?
Through a sociological and psychological perspective, many scholars of symbolic anthropology and archetypal psychology (like Carl Jung) have observed the distinction between the "pointed star" and the "circle/orb" and how it often mirrors the traditional symbolic divide between the masculine (patriarchal) and the feminine (matriarchal) energies.
The Star, specifically the version made of two triangles, is often associated with traits traditionally categorized as masculine or patriarchal. The points of the star radiate outward, directional power, and in many cultures, the triangle represents the phallus, fire, and the drive to "ascend" or conquer. A star is a complex geometric construction. It requires straight lines and sharp angles, symbolizing logic, law, and the cutting nature of intellect. Stars are often used in a hierarchy to denote rank, with the top point of the star suggesting the peak or head of the hierarchy. It represents the attainable, distant goal, the guiding light that is watching over the world from a position of authority.
The circle/orb is a symbol of the feminine, the "Mother," and matriarchal systems. The womb: the orb is shaped like an egg, the belly, and the breast. It represents containment, protection, and the "Great Mother." Unlike the star, a circle has no top or bottom and no sharp points. Every point on the circumference is equidistant from the center. This reflects a horizontal or communal social structure rather than a vertical hierarchy. Cycles are a matriarchal symbolism and tied to the Moon (orb) and its phases. It represents the cyclical nature of life, death, and rebirth, rather than the linear progress represented by a pointed star.
Something else I forgot to mention is that when I began my initiation, I was guided to work with the moon and her phases. Remember, the Moon and the Sun are the brightest luminaries in the sky, and they are both orbs.
In alchemy and psychology, the circle (or "mandala") represents the "self", a state where all parts are integrated rather than divided.
Historically, as many cultures transitioned from Earth-based, matriarchal worship (the circle of the seasons and the Earth) to Sky-based, patriarchal religions (the Star or Sun of the heavens), the iconography shifted.
The sword vs. the chalice: This is a classic way this is taught. The sword (pointed, star-like, piercing) represents the patriarchy. The chalice (rounded, orb-like, containing) represents the matriarchy.
While the six-pointed star leans toward "sharp" patriarchal geometry, the eight-pointed star, known as the octagram or the Star of Ishtar, is one of the oldest feminine symbols in human history. The reason this specific star is feminine is not about geometry, but the astronomical behavior of the planet Venus.
The "Rose of Venus" (The Orbital Pattern), the most profound reason the 8-pointed star's link to the feminine, is the 8-year cycle of the planet Venus.
From our perspective on Earth, Venus completes a cycle every 8 years, where it returns to the same spot in the sky. If you track the position of Venus relative to Earth, it traces a near-perfect five-petaled rose in the sky. Because of this eight-to-five point ratio (8 years of Earth for 5 cycles of Venus), the number 8 became the sacred number of the goddess of love.
In ancient Mesopotamia, the eight-pointed star was the primary symbol for Inanna (later known as Ishtar), the Queen of Heaven.
Fun fact, my name, Celia, means Heavenly. Reminds me of a dream I had about the sky opening up, revealing thousands of spaceships, and out of one stepped a beautiful, dark-skinned couple, giants, wearing Egyptian clothing, embellished with gold necklaces and headpieces. They assured my safety by announcing, "The Anunnaki are here." Later, I would discover that Ishtar is an Anunnaki, and astrology was learned over 4,000 years ago in Mesopotamia.
Venus is both the "Morning Star" and the "Evening Star." The eight points represent the goddess's ability to govern both light and dark, war and love, life and death.
The Compass represents the eight directions, symbolizing the goddess's omnipresence and her role as the center of the world.
In terms of pure shape, sacred geometry, the eight-pointed star is the "Bridge" between the square (the earth/material) and the circle (the heaven/spirit). It is often depicted as a flower (the rosette), blending the "pointed" nature of a star with the "organic" nature of a blooming plant.
Even as the patriarchal systems took over, the 8-pointed star remained a symbol of the "Divine Feminine." In Christian iconography, the Virgin Mary is often called the "Star of the Sea" (Stella Maris). (Remember, Stella, Stella?) and is frequently depicted wearing an eight-pointed star on her cloak, inheriting the symbol from Ishtar/Venus.
Gnosticism: It represents the Sophia (Wisdom), the feminine aspect of the divine.
(Thanks for hanging in there. I know this is a long blog post. I assure you, it will shed some light, if it hasn't already. 😊 )
So remember my dream about the eight-pointed star hovering over my uterus? I needed to find out the correlation. Here is the connection I found. The eight-pointed star and the uterus are found at the intersection of biological rhythms, ancient sacred geometry, and the "Life Giver" archetypes of early civilizations. While the star looks "sharp" to the modern eye, to the ancient mind, it was a map of fertility and the internal timing of the female body.
In ancient cultures (like the Maya and Sumerians), following the thirteen moon cycles for fertility was their calendar. In ancient carvings, the star of Ishtar/Inanna was a rosette, a blooming flower, and in biological mimicry, the cervix is often described as having a rosette-like appearance from the front. Ancient priestesses viewed the eight-pointed star as the gate through which life enters the world. Just as the star represents the "Morning Star" (birth/emergence), the uterus is the physical site of that emergence. The eight-pointed star was used as a talisman for regeneration.
In the Sumerian "Descent of Inanna" myths, the goddess dies and is reborn, mirroring the shedding of the uterine lining and the potential for new life. I will share how this correlates with me entering menopause later.
As societies became more patriarchal, the soft, flower-like star became sharp, dagger-like points. This shifted the meaning from fruitfulness of the womb to the power of the crown.
The shift from the matriarchal Orb/Rosette symbolism to patriarchal pointed/hierarchical symbolism wasn't an accident; it was a deliberate social and political restructuring that took place over thousands of years.
As private property and land ownership became central to civilization, men wanted to pass their wealth to their biological sons. To ensure paternity, women’s bodies had to be controlled. The Orb, representing the autonomous self-contained womb, was brought under the protection and authority of the star, the male head of the household.
The Great Sky God Revolution - Early religions were earth-based, focusing on soil and the moon. But it was hijacked as nomadic, warring tribes, the Indo-Europeans moved into settled areas, and they brought Solar or Sky gods. These gods lived in the high peaks of the mountains and the distant cold stars.
The Earth was redefined as passive or matter, from the Latin mater, meaning Mother, while the Sky was redefined as active or spirit. This created a hierarchy, the spirit being male and above matter, which is female.
One of the most effective ways the patriarchy disguised the feminine was by placing her on a pedestal, elevating her so high that she was removed from actual power.
The Virgin vs. The Mother: The eight-pointed star of Venus, a goddess of raw sex, war, and fertility, was cleaned up. In the Middle Ages, this star became the symbol of the Virgin Mary. Her womb power was still acknowledged, but now under the authority of a Father God. She became a vessel rather than the source.
Going back to the Star of David, where the upward point equated with good light and progress, whereas the downward point equated with darkness, sin, and regression. By defining the feminine as the downward force, it became philosophically necessary for the upward male force to rule over the world to keep balance. The patriarchy couldn't fully delete the feminine because life can't exist without the womb. Instead, they placed her underneath as a foundation, which acknowledges she supports the structure, but will never be the one at the top.
So why does the patriarchy participate in child sacrifice? Is this to wound the feminine? I know this part of the conversation is heavy, but we have to have it to save the children. To understand, we need to look past the modern lens of murder and see how ancient systems viewed energy debt and the suppression of the matriarchal cycle.
While it may seem counterintuitive for a system obsessed with lineage to kill its own offspring, the act was often a calculated move to break the natural order and replace it with a legal or spiritual order controlled by men.
In the matriarchal or nature-based system, the strongest bond in existence is between the mother and the child. This is a horizontal bond of blood and biology. The intent of demanding the sacrifice of a child, the "Sky God" or State-System, forced the father to choose the law over nature. The wound is a psychological severing. If a man could sacrifice his child to a male deity like Moloch or Cronus, he is proving that his loyalty to the patriarchal hierarchy is stronger than his connection to the feminine womb. By claiming the right to sacrifice the child, the patriarchy asserted that the child was actually the property of the father or the state.
It is framed as a "holy debt." By returning the child to the fire or the god, the patriarchs were essentially saying: "We own the source of life now. The womb is just a vessel; the life belongs to the Sun|King|God."
Because the feminine represents the slow, natural cycle of growth, the logic behind the sacrifice was seen as a way to shortcut nature. Instead of waiting for the earth to provide a harvest through natural cycles, the sacrifice is a transaction. And because the feminine is the guardian of life and nurturing, child sacrifice is the ultimate anti-mother act. It creates a trauma bond to the patriarchal system; once the community has participated in something so horrific, they are bound to the new order because they can never return to the innocence of the old one.
The myth of Cronus (Saturn) eating his children is the perfect illustration of this. Patriarchal systems often have a "king of the hill" mentality. The greatest threat to the patriarchy is the next generation. The current power structure attempts to stop time and prevent the natural cycle of the son replacing the father or the return of the mother.
The psychological aftermath throughout history left a deep wound in the collective psyche. It redefined the "Mother" as someone who must fear the "Father's Law," the Sky-God. By removing the sacredness of the mother-child bond and replacing it with duty to the god-king, the patriarchy ensured that the feminine would always be underneath the heavy weight of the State's demand.
I know this seems unreal, but considering the Epstein files, it would seem that it is happening in this timeframe as well. All I can say is if I am having a nightmare, can someone please pinch me and wake me up?
The transformation from the Healer/ Midwife into Witch is one of the most successful branding shifts the patriarchy ever executed. It was a strategic move to dismantle the grassroots power of the feminine and replace it with centralized, male-dominated institutions, the church, the state, and eventually, the medical establishment. By changing the healer into a witch, the system didn't just change her name; they changed her social status from a "Source of Life" to a "Source of Evil."
The healer, the Wise Woman, held the keys to the kingdom because she understood the Orb/Circle, biology, and the natural world. She knew how to aid birth, but she also knew how to prevent it or end it. That was a problem for the patriarchy; if women could control their own fertility, the hierarchical system couldn't function. Men couldn't be certain of ownership over the next generation if women held secret knowledge of herbs and cycles.
The female healer operated through synthesis, Earth (herbs), the Moon (timing), and the Body (touch). This was the Orb in action. The witch label was used to centralize power; the church and the early medical schools, which were male-only, had to discredit the healer. They labeled her knowledge demonic or superstitious. If she healed someone, it was because she made a pact with the devil. This effectively moved her position of community leader to criminal.
One of the most common accusations during the witch trials was that witches stole unbaptized babies to use in rituals or to make flying ointment. The patriarchy framed the midwife as a baby-killer and successfully drove a wedge between the mothers and their healers. This forced women to turn away from each other and look up to male priests and male doctors for safety. Childbirth was moved from the circle of women in a home to the hospital hierarchy, where the woman was placed underneath the doctor, often literally lying flat on her back, a position that favors the doctor's view, not the mother's anatomy. Women were taught to fear their own bodies and their own Wise Women.
Here is where perimenopause and menopause become the pilgrimage for the Wise Women, and why this is important in saving the children.
In the framework of the star vs. orb and the suppression of the feminine, perimenopause and menopause represent the ultimate undisguising of the woman. If the patriarchy views a woman's value primarily as a vessel, then menopause is seen as a decline. But through the lens of the eight-pointed star of Venus, it is actually an initiation into sovereignty.
Here is how menopause serves as a reminder of the eight-pointed star. During the childbearing years, the orb energy is focused outward, nurturing others, sustaining the lineage, and maintaining the disguise of the passive mother.
As an initiation in perimenopause, the biological reset forces the energy back inward. The blood is no longershed for the potential of another; it is retained for the self. And the eight-pointed star moves you from the five-pointed star (the physical body/fertility) to the 8-pointed star ( the radiant, cosmic Wisdom). You're no longer just a point in a family tree; you become the center of your own compass. Venus has two phases: the Evening Star, gentle, beautiful, and social, and the Morning Star, fierce, bright, and herald of change.
Society prefers women in the Evening Star phase, agreeable and nurturing. The "hot flashes" and the surge of power in perimenopause are often the Morning Star rising. It is a burning way of the patriarchal expectations. The heat is plasma of the star reclaiming its true shape, melting the labels, mother, wife, employee, to reveal the Healer| Witch| Sovereign underneath.
In patriarchal systems, crowning happens at birth, and the child emerges. In the initiation of menopause, the woman crowns herself.
In many ancient traditions, the Crone (the Crowned One) was the only person in the tribe allowed to speak the unfiltered truth. Menopause is the remembrance that your value was never about the fruit of the womb, but about the wisdom of the womb. You transition from the source of bodies to the source of culture, law, and healing. Do you now understand why I had the dream about the 8-pointed star hovering over my womb, whispering, "Remember who you are?"
Perimenopause is a chaotic re-shaping. You're moving away from a life of doing to a life of being. The 8-pointed star represents a woman who is fully integrated. She knows the dark, the blood, the earth, the witch, and the light, the spirit, the star, the healer. She is no longer underneath the male hierarchy because she has become her own North Star.
The reason modern culture makes menopause feel like a medical crisis is that a sovereign woman is a threat to the hierarchy. A woman who no longer cares about being pleasing and has transitioned into her truth-telling cannot be easily controlled.
The obsession with anti-aging is the primary tool used to disrupt the 8-pointed star initiation. By framing a spiritual transformation as a medical decline or an aesthetic disaster, the system ensures that women are too busy mourning their youthfulness to claim their sovereign wisdom.
The beauty industry, which was historically built and funded by patriarchal corporate structures, sells the Maiden archetype as the only valid version of womanhood.
The programming that a woman's power lies in her ability to attract the male gaze keeps her in a loop of feeling unworthy. Women become so focused on the imperfections of wrinkles, grey hair, and weight gain that they spend years rejecting the initiation of the Wise Woman, trying to look younger. Hot flashes come with the rage for truth, but the medical establishment often medicates and silences the fire.
I am not saying that women should suffer. But during menopause, I learned how to listen to my body and spirit. I went within and asked my higher self what she needed from me. The discomfort motivated me to focus on myself, ask for what I needed, and not tolerate the bullshit anymore. I personally believe that if I hadn't decided to listen to the calling and medicated with hormone replacement to snuff out my fire, I wouldn't be where I am today spiritually. I also understand that every woman's threshold is different, even in childbirth and postpartum. I chose to supplement with herbal remedies vs. pharmaceuticals, but every woman needs to listen to her body and not the advice from other women and what worked for them. You can still do the inner work without losing your mind. 😂
Getting back to the children. I believe missing the initiation is perhaps the greatest tragedy of our family lineage, as it leaves our children without the wise, fierce leadership of the women and a strong sense of their roots. Women who don't know their value raise children who don't believe in their worth and go out in the world looking for something external to make them feel whole. That is where the imbalance of the cyclical nature occurred. The patriarchy removed the Orb from the cycle of life for a hierarchical phallus Sky-God who punishes his children for sin, and sacrifices the innocent for male dominance power.
Which brings me back full circle on how the universe taught me to find my magic, so that I could create a system that I used and inspire women to remember their magic and live a life that feels enchanting, and empowered to save the children.
